copy, file, write, walk, determine, decide, debate.

organize, pile, staple, think, order, buy, return.

blink, breath, listen, wait.

stay awake. stay awake. stay awake.

sleep 3 hours. and a 20 minute nap.

SLIP N' SLIDE?

sick

sick.

sick with the thoughts and the guilt, nauseated at the memory.

violently ill - the churning below my ribcage escalates to a swirling typhoon until the stomach cannot hold it in. leakage trickles from my eyes.

how long will this last? can i get past this myself?

for i am alone.

to do

today's 'to do' list:

-doctor's appointment

-work out

-go to pool

-eat dinner

today's actual activities:

-get HEP B shot ... dangle left arm around sadly.

-1/2 hour of Gilad [Israeli fitness GOD] ... proceed to sit in front of the FitTV channel and watch Brazil Bodies for the next hour.

-look up Underwater Pogo-Stick, as seen in Sky Mall

-let eyes glaze over for full minute only to blink and realize contacts dry out rather quickly without constant attention

fun with food